Today was a day of celebration, but an emotional reminder of what we were doing a year ago!
We are so proud of Hannah's strength this past year, it is truly amazing. As I think about what I was doing a year ago at this time, I just get this deep and painful pit in my stomach. All I can think about is the thoughts that were haunting my mind in that moment as I stood over her bed helpless. Even as a nurse, I was completely terrified and overwhelmed. As I reflect on that night, I remember sitting there wondering if my little girl was going to overcome all of this! I felt so defeated. Life just seemed so unfair, and I wondered what God had in store for us.
The feeling of the "unknown" is terrifying. This type of "unknown" is hard to put into words. We sat there and watched as our child laid there with her life in the hands of people we didn't even know. We were left wondering for 24 hours if she is going to make it through this or are we going to have to try this all over again! I remember we were standing strong that evening for our little girl, but there was still that deep pit in my stomach that would creep up on me. We had to keep reminding ourselves that as long as we we had hope and faith, God would get us through this awful time in our lives.
To this day, I still get that dreadful feeling, I experienced that night. It's not to often, but it is a sure reminder for me how lucky we are to have our little girl here with us. Today was the biggest milestone yet for Hannah, and thank you to all who have recognized how important this day was to us!
We have her clinic appointment tomorrow morning so please say an extra prayer for Hannah that things can continue in the right direction as her labs were a little off a week ago, and this is when that feeling haunts me. I know that God is watching over her every step of the way, and he has already shown that to us!
Congratulations Sweet Hannah Rose! Daddy, mommy, and Jacob are so proud of you! We love you!
THEN....
May 7th 2012
NOW....
May 7th, 2013
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